Why is it that so many of us experience this?
Why is it that this affects our bodies and the weight we carry on our bodies?
Could it be that this is what keeps us from truly succeeding?
What I’m talking about is, the agreement to be shy. The agreement to be less than who we are. The agreement to hold
back.
I’ve investigated, studied, explored, and I’ve done inner healing myself about this one thing that stands between us and being our greatest, most vibrant self. And I’m going to talk to you about that today, but right now I want to tell you my story.
When I was 30 I took my first yoga class and it completely changed my life. Shortly after I want to see a medium, a very spiritual woman, for some guidance. "I want to go back to a time around age 12 or
13, you took a decision then," she said. At first I didn’t know what she was referring to. She said again, "around puberty, what was going on?"
"That was when I found out from a friend that my father had gotten remarried, my parents divorce went through," I replied, "the house was sold , we had to move."
"You took a decision then, if I don’t let anyone get close to me they can’t hurt me."
I burst into tears. That was when I had become
painfully shy. I had always wondered why I had become so shy. This Ah Ha moment allowed me to be able to begin breaking down my huge walls of shyness brick by brick.
I set off on an around the world spiritual journey that lasted a year and a half. I was searching for answers for the key to what holds us back from attaining all that we want. I did 4 ten day silent meditation retreats, I learned about Buddhism in a monastery in Nepal, stayed at ashrams in
India and Indonesia, it was Eat Pray Love, Canadian style.
Over time it became clear to me how most of us have these fears and pain we have spent our lives covering up. Myself included.
We use coping mechanisms that show up as over eating, using drugs or alcohol, overwork. And I’ve done them all. I got an A+ in partying in University.
In 2009 when I was voted as member of the year in
my cycling club it hit me that maybe I wasn’t quite as shy anymore.
A few years ago I hired a business coach who believed in me more than I believed in myself. He told me that he was proud of me , I never remembered hearing that before. I began believing in myself and I began to be proud of myself and willing to be seen.